Ok well it has been since October since I have written a blog, but I now think it is time. I am sure many of you have seen the post on my Facebook and have had questions. The truth is really I don't owe anyone an explanation for what is going on, but you are all my friends for a reason and I would like to share a little bit of what is going on.
Heath and I have been married 9 years and it to say the least has been a very trying time for both of us. We met when I pretty much had gotten out of high school and he had just got in the army stationed at Ft. Campbell. We were really young and only dated for a year before we were married and had our first child, Mason. Heath did his army thing and all of you know got injured in 2003. He def came back a different person physically and mentally. Those of you that have husbands or wives in the military know when they deploy and especially for as many times and as long as they have been gone, they change, rather they get hurt or not. I have been begging Heath for the last 7 years to please go get help. He was great in front of people, but what is behind close doors you do not see. He was very bitter and angry as what we probably all would have been. I took the yelling and anger and let, well i thought get it out of his system. Here we are 7 years later still going through the same battles.
I have decided that it is time for me to take care of me.. I have supported him in every single thing he has wanted to do and all of you that know us, I hope have seen that. I am extremely proud of all the things he has accomplished and will continue to do with his life. I have decided to leave Heath and make a name for myself and be completely and whole heartedly happy. I think I deserve that, I think we are all put on this earth to have unconditional happiness and it is up to ourselves to find it. I am not saying that it will be easy all the time, but is it worth a try. There are of course other variables playing in this decision, but that I will not share for our families sake.
I hope that all of you please be respectful of my decision to do this. I have had many nights staying awake and crying over this and I just want to be happy for myself and especially my kids. I need to continue to be a strong role model for them. We are keeping all of this civil and we are taking care of the kids needs to help them transition through this all. They seem to be taking this really well which helps me. Thank you all who have supported me and him through our time together and also through the times we are having now. I now know that I truly have the best friends in the world and for that I wanted to share this with you all.
Tiffany
